" Fwd >> For you: さようならの手紙 "

" If you think that just because I only put and say happy things I'm doing excellent, you're so damn wrong. It seems that you never knew me at the end, or you're so bewildered with anger over something "stupid"that you refuse to think normal crap without having second thoughts. Funny thing is that you always used to tell me that I was the senseless cold-hearted egoist but you also seem to be the one, leaving aside all the sweet nothings you could've said. Tragical thing is that you never trusted me... neither forgave, neither forgot.

I'm not happy, mainly because I got the feeling that right now everything is falling down on me and I'm scared. Everything.
I'm not happy at all, you know? It's just that I'm used to carry on and try to get over things with a heavy burden on me, like I've done during most of my life.

Please don't get surprised. Please don't get mad. Just save it, let it go... and stop. You made it bigger than it was supposed to be, and I think you've done enough damage already, if that's the way you wanted it. What makes me even sadder is that we will remember this as something horrible, not like the sweet memory it was before.

I keep reading the messages you sent and it hurts. It hurts, it hurts, it hurts... But I can't cry.

Goodbye forever, my sweet angel".

- David -

家に帰る (´„•ω•„｀)

Returning from Santiago always produces me edgy feelings.
Every single time gets even harder.

And when you arrive almost inmediately to work, the sudden change from vacation mode to work mode... Uff!!

That's why they say that you need some days to rest from your vacations, 
something that I never do hahaha!

Today the transfer picked me up super early cause my flight was early, so I'm pretty much tired by now...

[Mandatory breakfast at the airport]

The airport was a crowded busy mess in the morning, and my boss called in sick for the afternoon... So I still regret going to work today. I should've stayed at home.

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I was grabbing some donuts at night when I found one extra sticker at the box. Out of habit, I put it on my face. 

Few seconds later I started to laugh. How silly I can be sometimes... *snort*

Now is stuck on my desk, next to my bed.

Well, enough random babbling for today...

しかし...

There was a blackout when I returned home from work yesterday.

I couldn't do much and I was tired, so I decided to go to sleep. 
It was almost midnight.

I was putting on my pijamas when I felt a very subtle earthquake. Then, I was about to get on bed when the tsunami alarm started.

I got pissed off this time, but I had to evacuate anyways.

I went back to sleep at 3-4 a.m more or less. 

And I have to go to work in a few hours 

*sigh*

It's useless to get angry at this now. But I'm also sad.

Ugh.

緊張

*da rant*

Boss, I hate you so much and you know it.

The world may be ending and you, fucker, would still make us work.

But yeah, you're staying at home, of course you're not coming. Piece of shit.

Do something good for your workers for once at all !

And you, fucking students, ... WHY ARE YOU FUCKING COMING?!

If I could, I'd hit everybody with a chair in their faces.

GOD DAMMIT !

(ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻

(ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻ (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻

(ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻ (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻ (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻

(ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻ (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻ (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻ (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻

*end of the rant*

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Yesterday there was an 8.2 earthquake in Iquique and Arica. And well, a tsunami also.

And I had to go and work anyways because my boss said so. 

And my Institute is literally on the sea.

I'm not scared, but everybody is so worried about the fact that I work close to the sea that it makes me feel very nervous _(´ཀ`」 ∠)_

The only thing that is cheering me up now is that I got my Sailor Moon locket.

It's super cute (。┰∀┰。) ❤ *Tries to look at the positive things*

Gosh, I want to go home so badly.

EARTHQUAKE !!

HOLY CRAP.

Running away from your workplace at night, due to the tsunami alarm, 

WASN'T FUN AT ALL.

Especially if your boss runs away in panic and left you alone in charge of the Institute.

PIECES OF SHIT. I HATE YOU ALL !

ストレス

[Savior Cappuccino. ありがとう、オーランド ❤ ]

私は私の仕事で第二で爆発が欲しい。 

まだそれを信じることができない。真剣に... 

今、私は私の休日が欲しい。一ヶ月残っています！

がんばってね、ヴレちゃん☆！

寿司のデート

Today was a fucking bad day at work. It collapsed.

I wanted that to happen because lately everyting is a mess at work, 
and none of my bosses seem to care about the situation.

Now that everything kind of exploded, they FINALLY noticed that there are some issues needed to be fixed ! ヽ(●-`Д´-)ノ

Anyways, seen my bosses angry and with an ass face wasn't good. 

So, crappy day indeed (⇀‸↼‶)

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The only thing that cheered me up was that one of my co-worker invited me to a Mocha frappucino...

[I really really appreciated it, thanks Stelios (╥_╥) ♥]

... And that I was looking forward for the date with my 彼氏 at night.

I had an awesome time ☆ !

We went to "Sushi Sake" restaurant. 

One of my students recommended it to me, so we wanted to give it a try.

It was pretty good actually, and they had a grat variety of sushi and rolls. 

The only thing I didn't like is that they only had soft drinks. No alcohol at all.

Stil, it's an absolutely recommendable place ヽ(*≧ω≦)ﾉ

Now, time for some photos~

∩(︶▽︶)∩

[Waiting for our order ~ ]

[The cameras]

[What we ordered]

[Unprepared shot]

[FISH OMG GASP FACE *laughs*]

すごい !

Today I was supposed to have classes, but I cancelled them for Friday.

I was super tired...

My sister wanted me to go shopping with her in the morning, so I tried to look a little more stylish (▰˘◡˘▰)

It was a great day. And my sis got all the things she wanted.

We were also going to get some clothes but, as usual, there was a huge mess 

at the stores so, not happening...  ( ಥ ⌣ ಥ )

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The rest of the afternoon was normal.

Still, I'm feeling a little bit stressed, so I'm still having headaches during all the day.

Also, one of my co-workers quit today.

Tomorrow is going to be a mess.

Fucking shit.

 _(」∠ ､ﾝ､)_

眼鏡

I really don't like my glasses. Even if some say that I look good, I don't think they fit me. Especially because they stand out my nose (which I also don't like).

But, lately I've been having terrible headaches during all the week so, I must wear them. They're not helping much though, but still... *sigh*

Anyways, today wasn't a very productive day (leaving aside the fact that the air conditioning wasn't working! The whole institute was fucking hot because it's fucking underground, in a fucking parking lot, with no healthy air a all ! ).

At least I got a free Pepsi from my co-worker...

(Which I actually very appreciated it 'cause it was very cold and refreshing)

I'm going to sleep now.

感じる方法がわからない。

Not in my best mood today.

(Still trying to make my family understand that  I'm not a kid anymore, that I'm trying to mantain my social life, leaving aside the fact that I work until late every fucking day).

Also, my best friend is leaving forever on Tuesday.

Ugh ~ _(」∠ ､ﾝ､)_

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... At least I was productive. I put some order in my room and 

I finished painting Pato's present.I hope he likes it ~（￣ ε ￣ ）★

ミルクセーキ ♥

The gym, an argument with my 彼氏, and going to the post office to claim a package that took me forever.

Also, work was busier than usual.

After a stressing working day, my friend Lissette invited me to a milkshake.

Best thing of the day. 

Thanks, Sweetie ♥ ! 

何かが欠けている。

I miss Santiago. I didn't want to come back.

(*≧m≦*)

Santiago: 2日目

Today's schedule was very hectic.

Because yesterday I couldn't go to the 2nd chinese mall, I decided to add it to my itinerary. It was more or less like this:

• Chinese mall 2 : Get presents for my sister, my mom, and my secret santas. Also, get a bag for the gym and some damn wigs ☆ !
• Portal Lyon: The main building to visit. Get a present for my 彼氏 and my brother.
• Patronato: Get myself some clothes, cute things and my grandma's birthday cake.

So, I was awake very early in the morning and left the house at 10:30.

• At 11 I was at chinese mall and I got all the stuffs I wanted. Bad thing is that I was already loaded with things. 1 almost full big tote bag and big plastic bag with two boxes of shoes. I was behind my itinerary by 30 mins. more or less.

• The bags weren't that heavy yet so I went to Lyon's at 12:00 and got the presents that I needed. I decided to get rid of the shoe boxes (because I got more things), just carry the sandals, and put most of the things in one big plastic bag.I was window shopping a lot, so it took me more time than I expected.

• I arrived to Patronato at 14:00, with an almost full tote bag and a plastic bag. Also, it was suuuper crowded (GOSH!).

I gather some courage, strenght and patience, and decided to finish my Christmas quest.

The korean cocnvenience store was close (and empty), so I got some food supplies and an hydrating drink. It was awfully hot that day !

After 2 hours of hopping I decided to take a break and eat something. 

I got a refreshing Taiyaki ice cream !

By the end, it was 17:15 already, so I went to buy my grandma's cake at the korean bakery before closing.

They had so many choices ! I couldn't decide inmediately !

At the end of my quest, I couldn't get many of the things I wanted, especially because it was so crowded that I didn't even bother to ask or to try on something.

So, there I was, with a fucking big full tote bag on my shoulder, my purse on the other one, a big fucking plastic bag on my left hand, and the cake on the right one. And I had to enter the hell called "subway", with 29°C and full of fucking people !

I don't know how did I do it, but I arrived home safely at 18:00.

My grandma helped me and offered me lunch. 

It was the best reward after that crazy day.

Then I showed her the cake that I bought (cherry flavor) and she loved it. 

She was sooo happy ♥ !

Then, at 20:00, my friends Ruben and Lore called. They invited to have something to eat/drink, together with a nice talk.

We decided to have some tea with my grandparents before leaving. 

The bread, the tea and the cake were awesome !

Finally, I left the house again at 21:00.

I arrived just in time to the meeting point. 

I was glad to see my friends again. 

We ate at a very nice place, have some drinks and then we went to their apartment.

We spent the night talking until 03:00 more or less.

At the end, I decided to spent the night there. It was very late already.

ドレス

I have my Graduation Ceremony in one week, and I've tried to look 

for a nice dress for the ocassion.

It was so difficult ! 

Especially because everything was horrible and default ~ _(」∠ ､ﾝ､)_

:firstworldproblems:

Still, I managed to finally find a cute dress that I like （≧▼≦；)

Now, the next issue are the shoes...

GOD! So expensive and so ugly...

I hate living in a fucking city with not so many options !

Well, SHIT.

(ಠ∩ಠ)

感情を食べる

Today was very hectic ! _(´ཀ`」 ∠)_

After working, I had lot of things to do in the afternoon and I had a second 

meeting with my fellow lolitas.

I was supossed to wear my outfit for the runway, but I had some problems at home and got late, so I just wore something veeery simple.

(Fiorucci Angel face *laughs* )

Not everything went as I expected, especially because the leader didn't appear early due to some problems, so I was very pissed of by the end of the day.

Some hours later, my friend Luthien appeared and she had a Breakdown.

After getting some stress and having a talk, we decided to go downtown to "Racconto" restaurant  to get something to eat, in order to cheer up ourselves. 

I had an awesome time in the end ❤

つまらない...

Last night I had another Halloween party. 

This time was the birthday of one of my 彼氏's best friends, so I decided 

to go with him.

The theme of her party was "Heroes and Villains"... Pretty original.

And I was so pissed off, because it was fucking Halloween and 

she decided to be fucking thematic.

╭(ಠ∩ಠ)╮

After giving it a lot of thought with my 彼氏 (because we didn't have too much time to come with a new costume and I already prepared 3 costumes for the other days), we chose "Adventure Time". I was Fionna and He was going to be the Ice King. 

I had to improvise a lot, but I managed to do it ! _(´ཀ`」 ∠)_

Needless to say, I didn't really enjoy the party.

I didn't know anyone, but everybody knew each other. And nobody was willing to have some social interactions with the outsiders... *sigh* (⇀‸↼‶)

The food and the music were good, though...

Anyways, I left the place super-early and my Halloween night was spoiled.

The only nice thing is that I got to spend time with my 彼氏 ❤

Next year we're going dancing, definetely.

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Tomorrow I'll go to an Anime Event to record and takes photos of the cosplayers.

The event is going to suck badly, but I'm pretty sure we will have fun anyways ~

(⊙‿⊙✿)