" If you think that just because I only put and say happy things I'm doing excellent, you're so damn wrong. It seems that you never knew me at the end, or you're so bewildered with anger over something "stupid"that you refuse to think normal crap without having second thoughts. Funny thing is that you always used to tell me that I was the senseless cold-hearted egoist but you also seem to be the one, leaving aside all the sweet nothings you could've said. Tragical thing is that you never trusted me... neither forgave, neither forgot.
I'm not happy, mainly because I got the feeling that right now everything is falling down on me and I'm scared. Everything.
I'm not happy at all, you know? It's just that I'm used to carry on and try to get over things with a heavy burden on me, like I've done during most of my life.
Please don't get surprised. Please don't get mad. Just save it, let it go... and stop. You made it bigger than it was supposed to be, and I think you've done enough damage already, if that's the way you wanted it. What makes me even sadder is that we will remember this as something horrible, not like the sweet memory it was before.
I keep reading the messages you sent and it hurts. It hurts, it hurts, it hurts... But I can't cry.
Goodbye forever, my sweet angel".
- David -
